I think part of the problem is my need to have everything perfect. Also I'm in a more clear leadership role than I've ever been in and I think I'm nervous about making a good start with my team. In line with my patterns, I'm probably focusing too much on details and I need to take a step back and look at the big picture.
Going to the gym and then having dinner at home with Ryan this evening helped me to adjust my attitude, and I found myself starting to think more about the things I'm happy about accomplishing over the last few days and less about my personal pity-party over my feelings of incompetency at work. In order to help me focus on the positives, here's a quick list of a few of those happy things:
- Nearly finished painting our master bathroom
- Got the jungle of weeds pulled out of my flowerbeds in the front & back yards
- Made a little progress on organizing my home office
- Made a lot of progress on my piece of the FIRST project
- Experienced Alyssa's first visit to the zoo
- Watched football with my sister
- Re-connected with an old friend
- Finally hung some stuff on the walls that's been lying around forever
- Had a long-overdue fun date night with Ryan
- Sticking to my diet & exercise routine....for the most part
OK, so maybe they don't all count as "accomplishments", but sometimes, at the end of the day, it's the little things in life that are the most important. Today was definitely an exercise in "increasing my range of responses" and choosing to have a more positive outlook....and on that note, I'm going to bed before midnight :)
